Everyone feels pain deep inside.

I don't know why but sometimes, looking at people around me just makes me wanna cry. Be it a stranger or a friend, Be it my parents or my siblings.. I see there's pain in their eyes. I believe Happiness is hard to find nor achieve. But laughter and a fun is like short or draft scene of Happiness. Whenever we talk about Happiness, first thing came on my mind is that: i think Happiness is when we step/reach Heaven. No Offence, just my opinion. hmmm..

I just made a poem for what i think of my friend's situation. I don't wanna mention names. So yeah, you know who you are. I'm not trying to be harsh, rude or sarcastic but face the fact that what i'm saying here is true. (: No offence.

You always thought he was the only one,
But deep inside, you know that you're lying,
Now you've got to face the fact that you both are done,
Cause deep inside, you're dying,

You're dying not because you can't be with him,
Dying for lying to yourself and no other,
'This is Love' thats what you claim,
Things between you and him aint getting better.

Everyone agree that the truth hurts,
But it is even more hurtful to live in a lie,
Stop pretending if you don't wanna feel hurt,
'Cause if you keep on pretending, in the end, you'll cry.

Much Loves, RizahDarling.

Pain explains everything.

I'm sorry for being rude.
I'm sorry for being sarcastic.
I'm sorry for i just couldn't be bothered.
I'm sorry for the attitude i have in me.
I'm sorry for the changes in myself and our r/s.

Sorry for the pain i've caused you.
Sorry for the tears you cried for.
I'm really sorry for every single thing.

I've composed a new poem and i love it truckloads. I don't know why but somehow it just explain what i truly feel.

I thought I could go through the rain,
I thought I could go through the storms,
I thought I could bear the pain,
I thought I could bear the thorns,

I thought I'm standing strong,
But I realise that I was just pretending,
Now I knew I was wrong all along,
And I shall start realising,
Where everyone says Last Long,
Where everyone hoped for Happy Ending,
When everyone's down,
When everyone's crying,
They realised all those words were just for pleasing.

End! hope you guys like it(:

Much Love, RizahDarling.

Thank You, babe.

I don't know why but somehow, i'm starting to love writing poems. Though, i know it doesn't sounds right nor great but all those words came from the bottom of my heart. Here goes for ya, babe.

Friends come and go,
That's what we always hear,
But babe, you know i won't,
I'll stay to wipe your tear,
You know that you can always ring my phone,
If you ever need a listening ear.

Even when we're far apart,
You're still near my heart,
We've got the same horoscope,
We've got similar mole,
We're often in the same boat,
I'll stick with you throughout the flow.

Much Love, RizahDarling.

Baby, this is for you.

Thank you, Shalin, for being there whenever i'm in need. Thank you so much. Everyone's busy with their own problem and stress but even when you have your own problem, you still have time for others too. You're the greatest.

I wrote something on a paper last night.
Didn't have a clue of why?
And i know it doesn't sounds right.
Atleast, i did try.
HERE GOES NOTHING,

Now I've seen your true colours,
And also You've seen mine,
We've seen the real-self of each other,
Obviously, you thought I was a dime,
I'm sorry for i am not,
&Hopefully, we will be better in time.

DONE!

Much Love, RizahDarling.

I'm much wiser.

I'm not lying about my previous post. Seriously, when will i ever have my average princessy life? K i know that word 'princessy' isn't suppose to be there but anyway, it sounds nice.

Sometimes, some guy that is 3years or more older than us always thinks that they're much more wiser and matured than us. Serious shit and no offence.. Sorry k? But obviously, this goes to both genders. Easy said those who are 3years or more apart from us.

You can't expect me to change in months when i've been living my life for years. Come on, be realistic. You couldn't see any effort from me in trying to change myself. Plus, you can't expect me to be what you wanted me to be 'cause you should have accept that person for what they are.

Yes, i'm younger but i believe that i'm much wiser than you. You can't expect problems to stop coming when our parent's life still do have some problems.. So what makes you think that we're so special that problems will stop coming. So what if the problems is from us or others, it is still problems. Just go on and run 'cause they're gonna chase you 'til you fall but i won't run with you 'cause i don't wanna fall as it hurts and obviously, it is more hurtful when problems is coming as the same time. So lets face it when we are still standing strong.

Much Love, RizahDarling.

Yeah, it does hurts alot.

Having period and the pain is seriously unbearable. Didn't have my breakfast in the morning and i just swallowed 3 tablet of panadols. The pain wasn't that bad but still, its painful. Didn't have my lunch either.

Craps have struck me on Midnight.

It's 4.30 in the Morning. Don't ask me why am i awake 'cause i myself don't even know why. And the reason of me blogging at this point of time is because i couldn't get myself back to sleep. Currently, just listening to A Rocket To The Moon's songs. Anyway, I still could remember the conversation Boyfriend and I had last midnight, Our Imagination went wild and obviously Unrealistic. He was sharing about his suprises plans and he got truckloads of suprises plans. After whatever he've shared, i kept repeating to my inner soul to be prepared for any upcoming suprises. Anyway, we were talking about ourselves in 5 years time &that is where my imagination went wild and ridiculously unrealistic.. Everything that came out from my mouth was all shits. So let me tell you what i've said to him, I believe that in 5 years time; the world gonna be truly awesomely UNPREDICTABLY DIFFERENT and hopefully better. We used to have fans but now most people are using the Air-Conditioner instead.We used to send letters to Overseas but We're sending Emails now. Where we never thought there would be such things like Electronic ToothBrush. &Then, i start talking crap like.. Perhaps in 5 years time.. Our life would change to be better and easier for us. We're gonna have electronic wings. We're gonna have a floating scooter. We're gonna have teleport. HAHAs. My boyfriend's mind must be thinking and saying when will her craps ever end.. So obvious cause my craps getting even more worse. I said, since our life changes and same goes to Animal's Life. Cat will start laying eggs, Where turtles learned to fly.. While Birds started diving and swimming, the sharks will learn to be a vegetarian. So they'll start eating seaweeds for life. &there is alot more to be type out here but i guess, all i've said in here is enough 'cause i did talked about the weather, the space with spaceships, the world and the Mars.

Anyway, Meeting boyfriend later on. teeeheeee, I received three photo comments and randomly from my ex. [-.-] When will he ever stop keeping an eye on me? When will he ever move on and stop watching me grow? Will he ever stop watching me grow? Because i believe the time where he starts to stop watching me grow is the time where he'll start growing. Oh well, as long as i'm happy and boyfriend is too. We'll be okay.

Much Love, RizahDarling.

Accept it, be it Good Or Bad 'cause you want it.

From now onwards, I wouldn't wanna be like what i going to be if... I don't wanna feel what i'm going to feel if... I never want things to fall apart 'cause it will if... I would be crying and keep on crying in future ahead if... I'll end up living my life with regrets if...

Yes, changing everything in you just gonna change everything in life too. You change one thing and it'll change everything arounds ya'. You'll never know what will happen sooner or later. You might like the way they've changed but you wouldn't wanna end up regretting for the changes 'cause the feelings ain't the same. You won't be regretting if it is better than last time but if it isn't as beautiful as it used to be, then i'll just have to say "GoodLuck".

I'm gonna harden my heart 'cause I don't want anything that lies beyond my eyes brings me down. 'cause i don't want anything that came out from their smelly-awful mouth brings me down. 'cause i don't want all this things be a huge problem and destroy what we have or what we feel..

Much Loves, RizahDarling.