Thursday, January 7, 2010

L-O-V-E

Having a dream isn't stupid, sweetheart.
It's not having a dream that's stupid.

It is how much we still LOVE each other that we could still tolerate one another's attitudes. Obviously, it is sucha a bumpy ride for us and for sure, we don't wanna go for another ride again. Had myself in deep thoughts all by myself in my dark room without realising that it caused me tears. Didn't even realise that i was crying all along since the start and it just couldn't stop flowing. Had my head spinning like obv. worse than a merry-go-round. I thought it was just my heart that is crying. Oh God, i don't wanna cry again. It really hurts deep inside. Tired of going through the torns. Tired of being hurt without anyone noticing nor realising. Tired of hurting others which it does hurt me too. Tired of hearing other crying when i did cried too. Tired of forcing myself to smile. I'm really tired but i never wanna let go 'cause i know, i couldn't live if i let go. It'll be weird, odd and awkward. If it ever happens that we really couldn't hold on any longer and stronger, i'll just keep them as my most happiest memories while we're falling in history.

ps; i really love you alot.

Much Love, RzahDarling.