Thursday, March 25, 2010

You're a part of my life now, aren't you?

You knew its true but you never wanna face the fact,
And out of the blue, i realised you're just a faggggg

Life always turns out unexpectedly and unexpected things happened in my life. I wouldn't wanna say like i always do. Y'know that i always say that 'shits happens' and i don't wanna say it now 'cause it ain't shit at all. I'm glad things happen this way eventhough it hurts emotionally and a slight physically.. I'm glad to know you and i'm glad for being an arse 'cause i wasn't faithful with my ex back then. Gave number to guys whom i am or am not interested 'cause i couldn't care much about him. He just couldn't be bothered and i don't even think God bothers much about him. Anyway, he's already fallen into history. So let's open a new chapter and read my new story.

To you sweets (you know who you are),
I never thought we would even get this close. I never thought you would even like me. Never have i even think that you would fall for me. Sometimes, some things you said, just made me feel like i'm never up to your standard. I really thanked God for everything 'cause if i never knew you, i wouldn't be smiling or laughing whenever i'm with you. Although i often cry at night but still, my day is much better than how it used to be.. I admit that i love you. Thank you for being nice to me although i know you know that i don't deserve to be nice to. I just hope what you feel for me isn't fiction or fake. I just hope what you feel deep inside towards me would stay that way for eternity.

There's alot of thing i want to say but if i keep on typing, i believe i'll be repeating the same thing but in different kind of ways. And i'm sorry for every littlest and biggest wrong things i've done. i guess, that's all i can say.

Much Love, RizahDarling.