Thursday, February 25, 2010

Some still kept unknown & still on my mind.

Lets just smile to others,
We'll never know with our smiles,
We could brighten up their dull day.

It's 3.25 in the morning now. I couldn't sleep. I'm having sleeping disorder again. Slept within 10 - 15 minutes and ended up awake feeling sleepy still. At 8AM, which is countable hours later, i'm working (: Oh God, please make today a great day at work. Atleast, pleasant customers in and out. Step in the SNS with smile and also stepping out with a wider smile? Pretty please, i just need pleasant people. That's the least i could asked for. As i didn't get my proper sleep like i should and for what i asked for would surely make my day a little better.. Though, i dislike the job. Eventhough, i often short of cash. Still, i won't give up. Thank you for the strength you gave me (:



I've told you once and plenty of times that i just needed time. See what's the outcome now after you've given me time. Everything needs time. Even the truth needs time. So now, the truth eventually came out that everything he said about you wasn't true. Not even a single detail he said about you. Yes, he may be good in composing songs. Yeah, he may be a good singer. But is he good at heart like you are? I mean, i'm just asking. Though, i know that i shouldn't praise you too much but still, you're better. Even if you're better, you're still not my perfect guy that i dreamt of 'cause he never exists. As no one's perfect so why do we still bother to wait for the perfect man when we, ourselves, ain't perfect?? (:

Looking back to what i have gone through in relationships, i just realised that it still do hurts deep inside when reminiscing on what truly happen on the particular day, month or year itself. Just wished those unseen scars that my past have caused, won't bleed again. I don't wanna cry anymore. I don't want myself to change. Yes, i admit that i'm very evil, sarcastic, rude and forever never nice but i can be even more worse that i am. I never thought i could turn heartless but this time, its happening again. Lets just see whats next (:

Much Love, RizahDarling.