Sunday, March 28, 2010

Downpouring when its not raining.

Unbearable,Undescribeable

He really thought i was updating my blog but i was actually crying and here i am now updating my blog. Its weird that everyone kept on saying let it out and just cry 'cause it'll make you feel better.. But sometimes, i don't feel any difference if i do so. Or worse, there's not enough time for me to let it out 'cause i'm sure they'll get half asleep by then. Or more cantik, they'll start snoring. Is there anyone who will be there sitting by my side and listen to my past stories? I don't wanna end up with someone who will say that 'its the past anyway.. just forget about it'. Its not that i don't want to. Its just that i can't. I can't pretend that i've forgotten about it when i still can feel the pain deep inside. Yes, i'm sad. Yes, i'm hurt. But i believe none notice it. Downpouring again. Perhaps, none understands me because they're not in my shoes. I'm truly tired of feeling the pain on my own. No one feels me and no one will get connected to what i feel. I don't wanna feel depressed like how i used to a month or two back then. I was messy and i was moody like almost everyday but now, i tried to fake a smile. I guess, i can't because i'll end up daydreaming always. I don't know what am i thinking of. Im sleepy and extreme tired but i'm just afraid to sleep 'cause i don't wanna end up dreaming of myself running and being chased by a guy. Oh well Goodnight

Muchh Loves, RizahDarling.