All posts on this blog are my own personal thoughts, opinions or etcetera which i feel like sharing and blog about it. Obviously, i don't mind you sharing your opinions or comments too but negative comment(s), please keep it to yourself as i don't want any hatred kept growing in me on you.
Hello Earthlings,
To have a clear view, i shall put my cards on the table. At times, i do dislike myself. I'm ultra-sensitive, sarcastic and i couldn't take jokes. Yes, people who don't take jokes sucks, why? You've got a problem with that? Yes, i do bitch and ditch about others, be it behind their backs or straight to their face.
I didn't went to work today which i supposed to. But they said, i would have an off day on weekdays. Only one off day but i don't even have any yet. I heard other outlet even have two days off, wth. I'm starting to give up soon but what the hell, i have to be patient till February 13th. While working, i saw a guy working as stacking the stocks at my outlet. Somehow, i know few details of him like his name, in which high sch is he from, he got a tattoo and WTH, i couldn't remember how i know all that. F-U-C-K kan?
Never thought that things could happen this way.
Never thought things could go this bad.
Always thought we could go through the rain,
Alway thought we could go through the pain,
But it seems like our love slowly going down the drain.
I'm sorry for what had happened and also what is hapenning right now.. I miss being showered with love and care by you. I miss showering you with my love and care. I miss the time you put a smile on my face by just kissing my cheek. I miss the time where i always felt safe and sound around your arms. But fears have overcomed me. But pain have been controling me. I admit it, i'm selfish, stubborn, too secretive and etc. I always thought that i could handle it on my own. But i simply couldnt. Cause i really don't wanna cry again like i used to with my previous jerks. Shits do really happened. I'm sorry but sometimes, you made me feel like i'm never up to your standard. You made me feel like i'm not worth your love. Too much pain i felt, Too many things i kept. All those tears i cried and now they're already dried. Lets just see what is gonna happen next. Perhaps, i'll try to forget what had happened to me but haiz... Don't wanna mention it here.
Introducing Senortey, He's my laughing gas and my bestfriend. I admit it that i'm super obsessed with his voice Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for making smile. Thank you for the song you've composed and sang. Thank you for everything. I really did thanked God for existing you in my life. (: I don't know what i'll do if i didn't give you my email addy when you asked my number. Thank you, thankyou, thankyou.
Never thought the song you composed,
Would even caused me tears,
Though I believe that you've not one of those,
But i'm still too aware cause i fear,
Tried moving forward and never look back,
Everything has fallen into history
But still here i am, unable to face the fact,
That this is my life story.
Much Love, RizahDarling.
Sorry for not updating my blog for quite sometime. I was in the mood of updating but just that something just stop me from updating it. I've started working and yeah, it is fine with me. But just having problem remembering the code numbers of the Vegetable and Fruits. I think, i'm suppose to have only 30 mins break but i took my own sweet time and dragged it to an hour. Cried and shed my tears on my break-time today. Couldn't help myself but to cry, i couldn't take it anymore 'cause he'll never understand the pain i felt. It just hurts alot. Don't know who to share with. Don't know who to cry on. Don't know who to pour out my feelings to. Valentines Day is coming,
The guys will be looking around,
Found a girl, then, start asking,
Whether they're up to the town,
While the girls will be thinking,
Thinking of 'Who should i go out with tonight?'
While the guys will be hoping,
Hoping that everything's gonna be alright,
Once request accepted
Guy's will be busy on planning,
And girls will be frustated,
When they can't decide on their dressing,
*Final, decision made,
Both party will have a headache,
But in the end, Valentine day was great,
They'll say 'i love my fate.'
*1 Extra verse that was on my mind that i just couldn't fit it in my othe verse or in between any. Yes, i admit that my english is extremely bad.. Atleast i did tried.
Much Love, RizahDarling.
I don't know why but sometimes, looking at people around me just makes me wanna cry. Be it a stranger or a friend, Be it my parents or my siblings.. I see there's pain in their eyes. I believe Happiness is hard to find nor achieve. But laughter and a fun is like short or draft scene of Happiness. Whenever we talk about Happiness, first thing came on my mind is that: i think Happiness is when we step/reach Heaven. No Offence, just my opinion. hmmm..
I just made a poem for what i think of my friend's situation. I don't wanna mention names. So yeah, you know who you are. I'm not trying to be harsh, rude or sarcastic but face the fact that what i'm saying here is true. (: No offence.
You always thought he was the only one,
But deep inside, you know that you're lying,
Now you've got to face the fact that you both are done,
Cause deep inside, you're dying,
You're dying not because you can't be with him,
Dying for lying to yourself and no other,
'This is Love' thats what you claim,
Things between you and him aint getting better.
Everyone agree that the truth hurts,
But it is even more hurtful to live in a lie,
Stop pretending if you don't wanna feel hurt,
'Cause if you keep on pretending, in the end, you'll cry.
Much Loves, RizahDarling.
I'm sorry for being rude.
I'm sorry for being sarcastic.
I'm sorry for i just couldn't be bothered.
I'm sorry for the attitude i have in me.
I'm sorry for the changes in myself and our r/s.
Sorry for the pain i've caused you.
Sorry for the tears you cried for.
I'm really sorry for every single thing.
I've composed a new poem and i love it truckloads. I don't know why but somehow it just explain what i truly feel.
I thought I could go through the rain,
I thought I could go through the storms,
I thought I could bear the pain,
I thought I could bear the thorns,
I thought I'm standing strong,
But I realise that I was just pretending,
Now I knew I was wrong all along,
And I shall start realising,
Where everyone says Last Long,
Where everyone hoped for Happy Ending,
When everyone's down,
When everyone's crying,
They realised all those words were just for pleasing.
End! hope you guys like it(:
Much Love, RizahDarling.
I don't know why but somehow, i'm starting to love writing poems. Though, i know it doesn't sounds right nor great but all those words came from the bottom of my heart. Here goes for ya, babe.
Friends come and go,Yeahyeahyeah, i know it sounds awful. Anyway, i wanna thank you a thousand loads. Seriously, thank you for being there.
That's what we always hear,
But babe, you know i won't,
I'll stay to wipe your tear,
You know that you can always ring my phone,
If you ever need a listening ear.
Even when we're far apart,
You're still near my heart,
We've got the same horoscope,
We've got similar mole,
We're often in the same boat,
I'll stick with you throughout the flow.
Much Love, RizahDarling.
Thank you, Shalin, for being there whenever i'm in need. Thank you so much. Everyone's busy with their own problem and stress but even when you have your own problem, you still have time for others too. You're the greatest.
I wrote something on a paper last night. HERE GOES NOTHING,
Didn't have a clue of why?
And i know it doesn't sounds right.
Atleast, i did try.DONE!
Now I've seen your true colours,
And also You've seen mine,
We've seen the real-self of each other,
Obviously, you thought I was a dime,
I'm sorry for i am not,
&Hopefully, we will be better in time.
Much Love, RizahDarling.
I'm not lying about my previous post. Seriously, when will i ever have my average princessy life? K i know that word 'princessy' isn't suppose to be there but anyway, it sounds nice.
Sometimes, some guy that is 3years or more older than us always thinks that they're much more wiser and matured than us. Serious shit and no offence.. Sorry k? But obviously, this goes to both genders. Easy said those who are 3years or more apart from us.
You can't expect me to change in months when i've been living my life for years. Come on, be realistic. You couldn't see any effort from me in trying to change myself. Plus, you can't expect me to be what you wanted me to be 'cause you should have accept that person for what they are.
Yes, i'm younger but i believe that i'm much wiser than you. You can't expect problems to stop coming when our parent's life still do have some problems.. So what makes you think that we're so special that problems will stop coming. So what if the problems is from us or others, it is still problems. Just go on and run 'cause they're gonna chase you 'til you fall but i won't run with you 'cause i don't wanna fall as it hurts and obviously, it is more hurtful when problems is coming as the same time. So lets face it when we are still standing strong.
Much Love, RizahDarling.